My past sank in aceh
all i can say about these.
its been 10 year but i can still remember how
do i breathe in that place.
a place where you would see the sun lately,
after all part of indonesia woken up
from their sleep. its pretty dark when you open
the window and let the fresh morning air
cure the freakin night atmosphere in your room.
because you're the west part of this country.
the afternoon looks brightly with the sun still appear
in the west part of the aceh sky. while i still playing
with some neighbours at 6 pm. i confess , i do love this city much.
anyway i begin my life in this city while i just
remember my first memories in life.actually i wasn't bornt in here.but a year in my hometown,bogor, couldnt felt as
a journey of my life because i was too young to experiencing things in my life.
here, in this city.when my mom gave breast feeding me and i taste some differences on "them",
be the first data in my brain. i still remember when i sent to my first
kindergarten then i got friends and first enemy.
this is the city where i grow up in the phase called todler and child.
i was the last children in my home and i got an extra attention
from my parents.besides , my brother and i are quite different.
here i found a real family where we could go to the beach on the
weekend and going to some other beautiful places in this part of province.
i love beach so much. and i miss those beaches in my life.
in other words, i can say that i really love this city because i
grew and found my happiness in here. although this city isnt fastly
developed such other city does. this place giving me lots of sweet
memories that i couldn't forget and got it again in any cities i lived.
sadly i have to moved out of this city in case of separatist war.
its no longer being a safe city for non-acehness people. a guy shoted
in the middle of this city by GAM or a community of acehness separatist
rebellion. luckily my dad was transfered to another office in another province.
so we could leave this place and sank lots of memories to be a good
remind in head.i was crying while im saying good bye to my classmates,
and my friends also giving me some words that i never can be removed
from my head. "good bye fachri, wish you safe to your destination".
the last word i could hear inside my car, when i wave through the window.
and i was wishing for tomorrow to be a safe journey to palembang.
the first destination is now medan. we must reach medan and left "pinto actjeh"
behind before night.It's really dangerous at night. during the afternoon we
meet so many army in the street to keep safe the travelers from GAM.
now i live here safely in palembang. but i dont find anything similar with aceh.
the people are rude and it wasnt so good as aceh was. there is no beaches and here is just left
some historical place that are CRAP. but im trying to adapt well and i got some.
but 5 years ago a real tragic disaster came to aceh and it pessed us off.
an earthquake was shakin aceh in 8.9 Richter Scale and followed by tsunami.
we didnt think that its a real big disaster. so, we was trying to call
some of our neighbour there. but there is no answer! we thought there is a little problem in
telephone line caused by earthquake. but we hope everythings are okay.
until we saw on tv how the condition was. and we were very very very very fucking pissed off.
oh god! do the people we tried to call yesterday are still alive?
we still hope everything are okay but we shutted up when we saw our estate was on its gound. all are on ground. no left.
we just can pray luckily to god for safing us through the separatist war and official move.
now i just can think of the place where i visited on weekend and how its condition right now.
and also i just can think of how my friends suffering from that disaster and staying alive.
if they still alive right now, i hope i can see and meet them again soon or later.
and now is 26 of desember 2009, the fifth year while people mourning
the disaster which was destroying their home and family.
i mourn this for my past and my friends who give me lots of experiences and memories.
good bye my friend, hope you feel safe in your destination.
whatever you are now, i hope the god always be on your heart.
fachri
Minggu, 27 Desember 2009
Kamis, 24 Desember 2009
it fucked me off...then Laugh so hard!!
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAH
i think its all i got as the result of cursing these sons of a bitch...
LOL!
predators kill predators
no protest!
create your own to kick ma butt
i think its all i got as the result of cursing these sons of a bitch...
LOL!
predators kill predators
no protest!
create your own to kick ma butt
oh no!
my best friend tried to call me some months ago.
but i wasnt answered. may be i charged it and it turned off.
shit! piece of unlucky time.
some days ago it was repeated. but i didnt answered this time.
hell, 4 missed michigan call!
i suppose to not silent the phone out of the no-phone moment.
for that reason i should accustoming myself to the disturbing ring tone.
ahh,it all unreached and i can't call back.and he tried to
call people at the dorm. it was success. but i wasnt there.
V.E.R.Y.G.O.O.D !!!
hey buddy i think we should make a deal before making a call.
afternoon there but midnight here?
holy shit!can be possible for no answer.
but i hope no more.
call me back in couple days.
im waiting for your exciting long year story!
LOL.
Minggu, 20 Desember 2009
bagus! gw berhasil nyumbang mimpi buruk...
gue capek nulis nih blog yang mewajibkan gue buat nulis all-english yang malahan menghambat kreatifitas otak gue buat nulis hal hal yang pengen gue tulis pas waktunya
lagi kena banget.
emang bakalan ngebantu banget buat gaining english skill atau whatever lah lo bilang apa. emang sih, tujuan utama gue bikin nih blog emang buat alesan yang itu.Tapi yang jelas kadang gue malah jadi males nulis cuma karna gue males nge-translate seabreg" pikiran gue kedalem bahasa inggris. buntut "nya pas gue mau nulis udah ngga dapet mood.
crap, terserah semua yang gue tulis di atas. gw ngga bermaksud mempublikasi kesedihan gue. tapi emang ada suatu hal yang nggak selalu bisa dibilang bahagia kan? karena emang hakikatnya masalah tu macem"...ngga cuma kayak yang ada di otak lo doang. gw nemuin isi journal book gue 75% isinya kemarahan, hinaan, ejekan, sumpahan, dan kesedihan yang gue lempar di hampir 50 lembar kertas. Tapi buat apa buku harian dibeli kalo bukan buat nularin unek unek lo kalo lagi marah, sedih, atupun bahagia. mungkin writting skill gue cetek sih. tapi at least gue cuma mau berbagi pemikiran sama para blogger yang udah bela"in baca tulisan gue.
gue memulai hari ini dengan kegelisahan yang hebat sampe sampe gue ngga bisa gerak.
kenapa? lomba. dasar tolol! mana ada orang bangun tidur ngga bisa gerak karna gelisah takut lomba.but i am. lomba yang gue daftarin sendiri nama gue didalemnya, terus besoknya gue takut buat hadapin itu semua?oh my god. is that...arrrgghh..i got no idea.
ketakutan gue berangsur hilang seiring dengan gerakan kaki gue ke kamar mandi buat wudhu terus solat shubuh. sempet"nya gue ngomong sendiri di depan kaca buat ngeyakinin diri kalo gw siap. tapi hasilnya, 1/2. gue masih nemuin suatu hal yang ganjil. gue masih ngga bisa ngilangin prasangka negatif dan semangat yang bilng gue mesti cepet selesai dari kerangkeng yang bikin gue deg-degan begini. whatever lah apa yang gw pikirin tadi.tapi ada yang bilang ke hati kecil gue kalo gue pengen kalah. biar gue berhenti berharap buat ikut hal semacam lainnya yang bikin gue gerasa dikerangkeng lagi.dan gue ngga perlu cemas lagi buat lomba selanjutnya.
tapi pikiran gue ternyata bener, emang kalah. gue agak lega tapi kecewa. kenapa kalahnya di awal? lawan anak daerah lagi? daerah talang lagi.talang kelapa. atau terserah deh mau talang apa talang kelapa kek, talang jeruk, talang duren, gue ngga peduli. yang jelas mereka ngukur sejarah banget bisa ngalahin 17. biasanyaaaaaaaa, sejarahnya anak daerah itu saingan sama 17. atau maju ke ISDC barengan kita. Tapi khusus anak yang kompetitif bgt. bukan talang kelapa. gue ngerasa jerk banget tadi.
bener" hina. gue udah nginjek-nginjek nama sekolah yang semestinya gue bawa.
oh god. biasanya orang langsung menghela napas dalem" setelah denger nama 17 jadi lawan mereka. tapi sekarang ngga lagi. awalnnya mereka sempet nelen napas gara" dapet giliran sama kita. tapi ternyata setelah di-juri, mereka malah ngeluarin napas bahagia karna baru aja ngukir sejarah.
gue ngga terlalu peduli masalah itu. toh gue udah sepakat sama ali & anggit buat melakukan yang paling baik ga peduli menang kalah. dan ini debat terakhir gue. ali juga bilang bgitu. tapi ternyata kerja keras kita ngga sebagus yang dipikir orang biasanya. bibit andalan 17 udah pada di Amerika. ini tahun glourious mereka buat ngalahin 17 dan kami pun dengan lengahnya bisa kalah dan harus nutup muka dengan ulah kita. gue ngga yakin buat anggit&ali. tapi buat gue, itu injekan banget.pasti lo nanya kenapa gw sibuk amat sama hal bginian.
jawabannya gini:
tadi gue ngumpul sama temen" gue dari si Talang kelapa itu buat ngobrol"...terus merka ngaku kalo mereka tadi cemas banget. tapi sekarang mereka udah tau kalo kita udah nggak sekuat dulu lagi.
ditambahin dengan pernyataan kak leven yang bilang "biasanya 17 selalu bawa piala pas pulang. tapi sekarang udah nggak lagi. liat aja debaternya aja kaya fachri begini". gue sadar kalo itu cuma becanda. tapi paling enggak itu menyiratkan fakta kan? gue sadar gue emang belum berpengalaman buat ngasih yang terbaik. toh learning is a progress kan? dengan latihan yang cuma berapa kali belum bisa menjamin kalo gue bisa menjaga martabat sekolah. emang lo dengernya pasti lebay banget. tapi pandanagn orang diluar sana emang gitu. apa yang bisa gue kasih sebelum gue ninggalin sekolah jadi motivasi utama kenapa gue ngotot ikut lomba" yang semestinya ngga gue urusin lagi karena ada hal yang lebih penting buat dikejar di UI sana. Gue gagal dengan AFS. artikel gue yang dilombakan di APBN kemaren juga nggak dianggap sebagai suatu keberhasilan yang dalem, atu kalo bahasa kasarnya bukan standar 17 lah..buat gue itu berharga banget. tapi buat sekolah kayaknya piece of cake lah..
gue belom bisa dikatakan siswa 17 yang cukup berhasil sejauh ini.Gue juga minta maaf kalo gue belom bisa ngasih at least juara 3 besar di kompetisi apapun. gue harap sih ada yang sesuai ama minat gue.gue harap.
mungkin lo baca dari atas pasti bakalan mikir ini masalah debat yang tadi. tapi sejujurnya ini hanya menyinggung sedikit tentang kompetisi tadi. unek" gue selama ini yang gue pikirin, masih ada di otak yang nggak mungkin gue jeritin semuanya disini.
thanks buat semua temen gue yang selalu support gue kalo gue lagi down.
tapi pliss buat yang baca blog ini, jgn dijadiin bahan omongan yang kudu dibawa ketempat laen. gue khawatir ada pihak yang nggak perlu tau tentang postingan junk begini..sorry nih rada ngatur. kalo comment disini aja yah.jangan dibahas dimana"..
emang kayaknya blog bukan tempatnya ngeluarin isi kepala gue. tapi gue cuman berusaha ngilangin beban gue dengan nulis postingan yg mewakili isi otak gue.mungkin kalo hati gue udah mulai berangsur balik, gue bakal hapus potingan ini.
Fachri
lagi kena banget.
emang bakalan ngebantu banget buat gaining english skill atau whatever lah lo bilang apa. emang sih, tujuan utama gue bikin nih blog emang buat alesan yang itu.Tapi yang jelas kadang gue malah jadi males nulis cuma karna gue males nge-translate seabreg" pikiran gue kedalem bahasa inggris. buntut "nya pas gue mau nulis udah ngga dapet mood.
crap, terserah semua yang gue tulis di atas. gw ngga bermaksud mempublikasi kesedihan gue. tapi emang ada suatu hal yang nggak selalu bisa dibilang bahagia kan? karena emang hakikatnya masalah tu macem"...ngga cuma kayak yang ada di otak lo doang. gw nemuin isi journal book gue 75% isinya kemarahan, hinaan, ejekan, sumpahan, dan kesedihan yang gue lempar di hampir 50 lembar kertas. Tapi buat apa buku harian dibeli kalo bukan buat nularin unek unek lo kalo lagi marah, sedih, atupun bahagia. mungkin writting skill gue cetek sih. tapi at least gue cuma mau berbagi pemikiran sama para blogger yang udah bela"in baca tulisan gue.
gue memulai hari ini dengan kegelisahan yang hebat sampe sampe gue ngga bisa gerak.
kenapa? lomba. dasar tolol! mana ada orang bangun tidur ngga bisa gerak karna gelisah takut lomba.but i am. lomba yang gue daftarin sendiri nama gue didalemnya, terus besoknya gue takut buat hadapin itu semua?oh my god. is that...arrrgghh..i got no idea.
ketakutan gue berangsur hilang seiring dengan gerakan kaki gue ke kamar mandi buat wudhu terus solat shubuh. sempet"nya gue ngomong sendiri di depan kaca buat ngeyakinin diri kalo gw siap. tapi hasilnya, 1/2. gue masih nemuin suatu hal yang ganjil. gue masih ngga bisa ngilangin prasangka negatif dan semangat yang bilng gue mesti cepet selesai dari kerangkeng yang bikin gue deg-degan begini. whatever lah apa yang gw pikirin tadi.tapi ada yang bilang ke hati kecil gue kalo gue pengen kalah. biar gue berhenti berharap buat ikut hal semacam lainnya yang bikin gue gerasa dikerangkeng lagi.dan gue ngga perlu cemas lagi buat lomba selanjutnya.
tapi pikiran gue ternyata bener, emang kalah. gue agak lega tapi kecewa. kenapa kalahnya di awal? lawan anak daerah lagi? daerah talang lagi.talang kelapa. atau terserah deh mau talang apa talang kelapa kek, talang jeruk, talang duren, gue ngga peduli. yang jelas mereka ngukur sejarah banget bisa ngalahin 17. biasanyaaaaaaaa, sejarahnya anak daerah itu saingan sama 17. atau maju ke ISDC barengan kita. Tapi khusus anak yang kompetitif bgt. bukan talang kelapa. gue ngerasa jerk banget tadi.
bener" hina. gue udah nginjek-nginjek nama sekolah yang semestinya gue bawa.
oh god. biasanya orang langsung menghela napas dalem" setelah denger nama 17 jadi lawan mereka. tapi sekarang ngga lagi. awalnnya mereka sempet nelen napas gara" dapet giliran sama kita. tapi ternyata setelah di-juri, mereka malah ngeluarin napas bahagia karna baru aja ngukir sejarah.
gue ngga terlalu peduli masalah itu. toh gue udah sepakat sama ali & anggit buat melakukan yang paling baik ga peduli menang kalah. dan ini debat terakhir gue. ali juga bilang bgitu. tapi ternyata kerja keras kita ngga sebagus yang dipikir orang biasanya. bibit andalan 17 udah pada di Amerika. ini tahun glourious mereka buat ngalahin 17 dan kami pun dengan lengahnya bisa kalah dan harus nutup muka dengan ulah kita. gue ngga yakin buat anggit&ali. tapi buat gue, itu injekan banget.pasti lo nanya kenapa gw sibuk amat sama hal bginian.
jawabannya gini:
tadi gue ngumpul sama temen" gue dari si Talang kelapa itu buat ngobrol"...terus merka ngaku kalo mereka tadi cemas banget. tapi sekarang mereka udah tau kalo kita udah nggak sekuat dulu lagi.
ditambahin dengan pernyataan kak leven yang bilang "biasanya 17 selalu bawa piala pas pulang. tapi sekarang udah nggak lagi. liat aja debaternya aja kaya fachri begini". gue sadar kalo itu cuma becanda. tapi paling enggak itu menyiratkan fakta kan? gue sadar gue emang belum berpengalaman buat ngasih yang terbaik. toh learning is a progress kan? dengan latihan yang cuma berapa kali belum bisa menjamin kalo gue bisa menjaga martabat sekolah. emang lo dengernya pasti lebay banget. tapi pandanagn orang diluar sana emang gitu. apa yang bisa gue kasih sebelum gue ninggalin sekolah jadi motivasi utama kenapa gue ngotot ikut lomba" yang semestinya ngga gue urusin lagi karena ada hal yang lebih penting buat dikejar di UI sana. Gue gagal dengan AFS. artikel gue yang dilombakan di APBN kemaren juga nggak dianggap sebagai suatu keberhasilan yang dalem, atu kalo bahasa kasarnya bukan standar 17 lah..buat gue itu berharga banget. tapi buat sekolah kayaknya piece of cake lah..
gue belom bisa dikatakan siswa 17 yang cukup berhasil sejauh ini.Gue juga minta maaf kalo gue belom bisa ngasih at least juara 3 besar di kompetisi apapun. gue harap sih ada yang sesuai ama minat gue.gue harap.
mungkin lo baca dari atas pasti bakalan mikir ini masalah debat yang tadi. tapi sejujurnya ini hanya menyinggung sedikit tentang kompetisi tadi. unek" gue selama ini yang gue pikirin, masih ada di otak yang nggak mungkin gue jeritin semuanya disini.
thanks buat semua temen gue yang selalu support gue kalo gue lagi down.
tapi pliss buat yang baca blog ini, jgn dijadiin bahan omongan yang kudu dibawa ketempat laen. gue khawatir ada pihak yang nggak perlu tau tentang postingan junk begini..sorry nih rada ngatur. kalo comment disini aja yah.jangan dibahas dimana"..
emang kayaknya blog bukan tempatnya ngeluarin isi kepala gue. tapi gue cuman berusaha ngilangin beban gue dengan nulis postingan yg mewakili isi otak gue.mungkin kalo hati gue udah mulai berangsur balik, gue bakal hapus potingan ini.
Fachri
Jumat, 18 Desember 2009
A Glorious Nightmare
Anyway actually I never heard anything about gap year before brodie told me. Because it’s impossible to taking place in here. Especially for this year. people have three months after the announcement and use that longest holiday ever since the first step of education we got, to do everything on your head.but for a year, impossible.
Similar with another teenager, Im going to use it to traveling. Can be abroad or just in domestic destination. I don’t really care about the destination. Because The most important is I have a long holiday. I choose
Since last holiday, I found myself amazed by
I think
Everything can be real In gap year. But everything are just crap if you spend them in front of your computer to playing games or being a coach potato and sleep on a sofa with some chips.
Selasa, 08 Desember 2009
im scared of psycophatic dissorders...
mocking..insulting..cursing..swearing..bla..bla..bla..bla..
everything seems the same
______________________________________________________________________
Isnt america supposed to be the land of the free? how come, If im free I cant deprive a stupid fucking dumbshit from his possessions If he leaves them sitting in the front seat of his fucking van out in plain sight and in the middle of fucking nowhere on a Frifuckingday night. NATURAL SELECTION. fucker should be shot.
I hate you people for leaving me out of so many fun things. And no don't fucking say, "well thats your fault" because it isnt, you people had my phone #, and I asked and all, but no. no no dont let the weird looking Eric KID come along, ohh fucking nooo.
_eric harris_
______________________________________________________________________
damn does anyone know about that columbine high school massacre? whatever you gonna say that no mean sounds different for me.i think you people are the same in this world. and also does the animal that suffering from natural selection. i dont think this part of world will make the real characteristic of humans are being different.fuckers know that well.
anyway, bullying is normally just kind of things we got in life. not for me actually. but fuck for bunch of ass holes.how if the fucker do a bit rebellion? who cares.they probably just cursing on behind and act to be like a good slave on your fuckin face.
hell i dont think of it seriously when i watched. but it blow out a new idea. how if they really blow out your head? would you scared or just scared? your fear would be a second consideration before run and hope you havent do it all.
lets back to the real life. i wont write the "brand".but that weirdo kid really make my brain working.we bully him like a needs of doing someone.and surely here is not the jungle where you try to suffering from the natural selection who wil bring you to the real life. but sadly it works in school.my bully friend is kind of ass hole who never show that he has a plan in anything. and that plan make me a bit worry about him. if we put a limit in out quote for a day, it would be`out of limit and possible make a dissorder.we have done a private interview to that son of the retards and we shocked when he said he ever have a mind to kill one of the worst of us. who agree that its a jerking. and who agree that its a warning. seriously. we cant say whether its possible or not because we'll never know how people act without the angel guide him.for me, everthing about eric harris and dylan klebold is impossibly taking place in here. but that indication has warned us enough to not treating a human such like him. it sounds radiculous if you hear me care of those kind of jerk but we never know tha evil behind.and it made me scare of being a classmate of a guy with a little crossing out in their mental.because they are.....................................................i..got no idea for this.
everything seems the same
______________________________________________________________________
Isnt america supposed to be the land of the free? how come, If im free I cant deprive a stupid fucking dumbshit from his possessions If he leaves them sitting in the front seat of his fucking van out in plain sight and in the middle of fucking nowhere on a Frifuckingday night. NATURAL SELECTION. fucker should be shot.
I hate you people for leaving me out of so many fun things. And no don't fucking say, "well thats your fault" because it isnt, you people had my phone #, and I asked and all, but no. no no dont let the weird looking Eric KID come along, ohh fucking nooo.
_eric harris_
______________________________________________________________________
damn does anyone know about that columbine high school massacre? whatever you gonna say that no mean sounds different for me.i think you people are the same in this world. and also does the animal that suffering from natural selection. i dont think this part of world will make the real characteristic of humans are being different.fuckers know that well.
anyway, bullying is normally just kind of things we got in life. not for me actually. but fuck for bunch of ass holes.how if the fucker do a bit rebellion? who cares.they probably just cursing on behind and act to be like a good slave on your fuckin face.
hell i dont think of it seriously when i watched. but it blow out a new idea. how if they really blow out your head? would you scared or just scared? your fear would be a second consideration before run and hope you havent do it all.
lets back to the real life. i wont write the "brand".but that weirdo kid really make my brain working.we bully him like a needs of doing someone.and surely here is not the jungle where you try to suffering from the natural selection who wil bring you to the real life. but sadly it works in school.my bully friend is kind of ass hole who never show that he has a plan in anything. and that plan make me a bit worry about him. if we put a limit in out quote for a day, it would be`out of limit and possible make a dissorder.we have done a private interview to that son of the retards and we shocked when he said he ever have a mind to kill one of the worst of us. who agree that its a jerking. and who agree that its a warning. seriously. we cant say whether its possible or not because we'll never know how people act without the angel guide him.for me, everthing about eric harris and dylan klebold is impossibly taking place in here. but that indication has warned us enough to not treating a human such like him. it sounds radiculous if you hear me care of those kind of jerk but we never know tha evil behind.and it made me scare of being a classmate of a guy with a little crossing out in their mental.because they are.....................................................i..got no idea for this.
Sabtu, 05 Desember 2009
cruel haircut..damn!
i believe theres no school apply a rules which is hardly to maintain by the students.
its sounds radiculous to cut our hair due to school circumstances. that will be okay if the rules are to
keep our hair in its "normal" length even without a clear definition of "normal".
but this fuck gone innocently in our school. the teacher, actually only a few of teacher who did it to students, bring a scissors to cut off our hair.
do they understand about good haircut?
hell dont ask!they cut them like they cutting a grass in their junk yard!
i know well why they do that. i cant blame them for what they did to me or others because thats a job! maybe i can curse it as the dumbest job ever even its not purely their job.
teacher is teacher.rules are rules. if i can give them hell, i would give to both.
im sure you must be confuse why i was being so mad, coz they cut my hair like a shit.
the second dumber is they are teacher and i cant blame them in case of their job
the most bitchin thing is why we have to cut our hair by 1cm - 2cm -1cm?
and why we have to make it as a symbol of our special school? we looks like dummy outta there wit this hair cut. and you like it? who the hell made this rule? and why you let that stupid fuckin dumbshit on your mind and make you proud of it?
try to consider! many school out of there didnt apply this rule but they can shows their existance. many school out of there who can be an elite well-know school without dealing wit this kinda bullshit.and also please try to understand us as a teenager, we wanna looked awesome by the hair within.
i understand your aim to keep the student known well by people with out identity as a special students.and i know this is kinda tradition. or it has been made since the first academic year in this school. but you cant let us looked silly with our short haircut. and also you cant let us look like a retard with our disaster haircut after you cut them off with your dumb sense of art!
and now, i cant go anywhere even takin a course out of school by lookin at my silly bad haircut...
you satisfied?was that all you really really want?
i guess no.
its sounds radiculous to cut our hair due to school circumstances. that will be okay if the rules are to
keep our hair in its "normal" length even without a clear definition of "normal".
but this fuck gone innocently in our school. the teacher, actually only a few of teacher who did it to students, bring a scissors to cut off our hair.
do they understand about good haircut?
hell dont ask!they cut them like they cutting a grass in their junk yard!
i know well why they do that. i cant blame them for what they did to me or others because thats a job! maybe i can curse it as the dumbest job ever even its not purely their job.
teacher is teacher.rules are rules. if i can give them hell, i would give to both.
im sure you must be confuse why i was being so mad, coz they cut my hair like a shit.
the second dumber is they are teacher and i cant blame them in case of their job
the most bitchin thing is why we have to cut our hair by 1cm - 2cm -1cm?
and why we have to make it as a symbol of our special school? we looks like dummy outta there wit this hair cut. and you like it? who the hell made this rule? and why you let that stupid fuckin dumbshit on your mind and make you proud of it?
try to consider! many school out of there didnt apply this rule but they can shows their existance. many school out of there who can be an elite well-know school without dealing wit this kinda bullshit.and also please try to understand us as a teenager, we wanna looked awesome by the hair within.
i understand your aim to keep the student known well by people with out identity as a special students.and i know this is kinda tradition. or it has been made since the first academic year in this school. but you cant let us looked silly with our short haircut. and also you cant let us look like a retard with our disaster haircut after you cut them off with your dumb sense of art!
and now, i cant go anywhere even takin a course out of school by lookin at my silly bad haircut...
you satisfied?was that all you really really want?
i guess no.
Selasa, 24 November 2009
what you think best for this year?
dunno..may be just filling with piece of shit in here.
well..nothing to share but its kinda weird if im not writting a bullshit okay?
im not in a middle of somethins that isnt really my business...
who knows PPH? that black and white sucks yearly party, isnt take me apart in its excitement.
so, why it have to be need my consideration vote for its exsistance in our senior years..and it even make a new problem inside.
anyway, this is very shittin year during the history of indonesian educational system since last 10 years i guess. why? we have a different kind of national examination like its supposed to be sucked by other students in this country. the confusing style of makin people to be more carefull of the pecentage of their passed, is a biggest fear for this year.
my godness! i agree wit the goverment to make this national exam at this year to be more strict.but this is not what i mean wit "agree"...randomize room division with the randomize location of national examination and a random exam number can be a good idea.but it sounds jerk if the goverment will random the school. come on jerk! whats so wrong with the last one?
actually i got no idea to fix this educational problem but this is a silly way you know?
the most crazy thing is how could it be there are 10 kind of test booklet in every room. so, if in every room contain of 20 bastards, there are just 2 people get the same question which
decide their fate.ohh for god sake this is the most crazy part of the changing educational system during my life.
i knew what everyone thinking of something when i said the word "UN" or national examination on their ears."oh damns..why didnt i passed from this fucking school last year?this system made me crazy even gone worse i think".but what we can do?just pray? pray isnt a real good answer even god also didnt give it a damn without effort. i was being shifted to the other hand. i agree to MA to demolish the national examination. this crazy things even gone crazier.
i think mant students outa there are get the same thing wit SAT or whatever thay called that, those such sucks give a disadvantage and advantages. but how we deal with the disadvantages?
i dunno anything about SAT.and i even dont care.but i care about my fate. this year gonna be the most stressing part during the last 3 years. and we even cant chance the ministry's decision to work on the new system of national examination.
well...now how to deal with the new sucks? yeah..no way without struggling and pray?hell yes.my aim is so fuckin well dreamt in my mind ever. i can pass the UN, Pass the university admission test, and get the right decision. thats all i hope for next. not much. but its kinda sprawl! its not as simply like we figured the how way to realize it. whats going on next if we want to get? STUDY HARDER the biggest and the most well worked bullshit i've ever heard in planet.
its a little time to prepare for them. but its not too late.now lets back to the poin. the PPH, or whatever you called that, is the stupid fuckin dummy purpose for the third year. well..i got a pretty good time then.but thats not fair with its sacrify.i have to sit and lookin on the assholes singing, dancing, and freakin on the front stage.besides, i do nothing and forced to not going home and going anywhere. holly allah! was it fair to pay or guarantee my future.i believe you know the best for us and i hanging it on you. honestly i said different outside. but its not make a bullshit.THEY seems like want to forced us to follow their goal. but its not a real fixed deal. is anyone not agree, it cant deprive the stupid fucking dumbshit wit his possesion.i agree wit you who called it as our last exciting even during this white grey fun..but i want you all to consider..did you thinking of people who just can see a jealousy from a kinda even that supposed to be happy?act nothing in PPH is aone of the biggest rubbish by wasting time to prepare for it or just following others force to prepare them.wasting time, wasting mind, wasting effort for wasting chances.thats all not a pray...god please dont hear that if you think it bad. but its kinda fact of these confusing last even among the big chances.
WHAT YOU GUYS THINK?
fachri
well..nothing to share but its kinda weird if im not writting a bullshit okay?
im not in a middle of somethins that isnt really my business...
who knows PPH? that black and white sucks yearly party, isnt take me apart in its excitement.
so, why it have to be need my consideration vote for its exsistance in our senior years..and it even make a new problem inside.
anyway, this is very shittin year during the history of indonesian educational system since last 10 years i guess. why? we have a different kind of national examination like its supposed to be sucked by other students in this country. the confusing style of makin people to be more carefull of the pecentage of their passed, is a biggest fear for this year.
my godness! i agree wit the goverment to make this national exam at this year to be more strict.but this is not what i mean wit "agree"...randomize room division with the randomize location of national examination and a random exam number can be a good idea.but it sounds jerk if the goverment will random the school. come on jerk! whats so wrong with the last one?
actually i got no idea to fix this educational problem but this is a silly way you know?
the most crazy thing is how could it be there are 10 kind of test booklet in every room. so, if in every room contain of 20 bastards, there are just 2 people get the same question which
decide their fate.ohh for god sake this is the most crazy part of the changing educational system during my life.
i knew what everyone thinking of something when i said the word "UN" or national examination on their ears."oh damns..why didnt i passed from this fucking school last year?this system made me crazy even gone worse i think".but what we can do?just pray? pray isnt a real good answer even god also didnt give it a damn without effort. i was being shifted to the other hand. i agree to MA to demolish the national examination. this crazy things even gone crazier.
i think mant students outa there are get the same thing wit SAT or whatever thay called that, those such sucks give a disadvantage and advantages. but how we deal with the disadvantages?
i dunno anything about SAT.and i even dont care.but i care about my fate. this year gonna be the most stressing part during the last 3 years. and we even cant chance the ministry's decision to work on the new system of national examination.
well...now how to deal with the new sucks? yeah..no way without struggling and pray?hell yes.my aim is so fuckin well dreamt in my mind ever. i can pass the UN, Pass the university admission test, and get the right decision. thats all i hope for next. not much. but its kinda sprawl! its not as simply like we figured the how way to realize it. whats going on next if we want to get? STUDY HARDER the biggest and the most well worked bullshit i've ever heard in planet.
its a little time to prepare for them. but its not too late.now lets back to the poin. the PPH, or whatever you called that, is the stupid fuckin dummy purpose for the third year. well..i got a pretty good time then.but thats not fair with its sacrify.i have to sit and lookin on the assholes singing, dancing, and freakin on the front stage.besides, i do nothing and forced to not going home and going anywhere. holly allah! was it fair to pay or guarantee my future.i believe you know the best for us and i hanging it on you. honestly i said different outside. but its not make a bullshit.THEY seems like want to forced us to follow their goal. but its not a real fixed deal. is anyone not agree, it cant deprive the stupid fucking dumbshit wit his possesion.i agree wit you who called it as our last exciting even during this white grey fun..but i want you all to consider..did you thinking of people who just can see a jealousy from a kinda even that supposed to be happy?act nothing in PPH is aone of the biggest rubbish by wasting time to prepare for it or just following others force to prepare them.wasting time, wasting mind, wasting effort for wasting chances.thats all not a pray...god please dont hear that if you think it bad. but its kinda fact of these confusing last even among the big chances.
WHAT YOU GUYS THINK?
fachri
Sabtu, 14 November 2009
america is part of sins
how i could measure the maturity?yeah..maybe by showing a big decision about what we belive or we want is enough for me.im 16 now and will being older.was that an enough age to lead my own life?maybe.
anyway. does anyone still believe about that national selection on last december?yeah.a part where stupid fucking bullshit lied.well im not goin to share what i felt at that time. but this is just a revision about what the hell is goin on in the past time. i used to be proud of myself cause im an achieve-full kid in my junior high school.got a high rank at class even school make me proud and motivate to be better...*ahh...vomit*
right.now in senior high school. a fabulous high school in town.17 high school. yea you can mock that. coz some ass holes dont know us. but thats okay.not my point.
many bunch of bookworm and genius people right here. so definitely, im nothing in here. i felt so much jealousy in my fist year when i was a freshman.why people can be this well. and im nothing here. ahh...embrassing..
until a lil chance come to me.whats that?exchange student program.where? i dunno. can be america, australia, or europe.i didnt have any brave nor motivation at the first test. ow..gees..how can a little idiot such like me got that chance?
well anyway i didnt got any 1-10 rank at class. and thats a terrible indication.i think that program is just for a brainy idiots and bookworms.but whats the result? i passed the first test.
alright. its still 5 test left to go. this is just a little won. even though my friends also passed. so this isnt a big champion.
next test. this is an interview season. in indonesian and in english.i think i done it well. and i got no problem to think in this step. the result is. i passed. yea. some of my friends are fail to continue to the next step. may be the word "step" is suits better than a test or selection. coz i feels like steping to the next level than passing to the next selection. but both are awesome! holly hell!whatever i said it, i felt like starting to find my confidence here.from nothing, to something.
a great thankful given..
next test.this is a group interaction aimed. we have to "sell" ourself, to act like a shit, among other are also selling bullshit here.while everyone try to be more friendly than they commonly are.yep.thats normal. so did i. but im naturally not makin a shithole bullshit like others.so, thats all exactly me.and wonderfully, i passed. step forward proudly between others. but i learn somethings. if we got something, dont let the others know it. so i dont have to feel so proud. coz everything are not always like what i wish.
next test isnt a real test. thats just a formal archieve selection by the central foundation. i just can wait whether it stand my name out or not.and once more an extra combo. i passed and now i will go to jakarta for the final step.
the day while i was waiting for is coming. now i have to fakely "selling" myself.but im to ordinary. i was being too honest. and it was my first experience while i must lying for being passed. i just did what i supposed to do.yeahh..many things that i cant publish here coz of privacy.
after it all done, i waited for the announcement...whether america will be my next year destination. but the result is........................hell no!
well...imma believer.im sure god has plan. but im alil more sure that others made bullshit. and thats all are just because of luckiness.i believe that you woiuld find a bite of people who did the same things like i did.
well you know what i did before this reallity gotten?
i prepared myself for next year?next year where? in US of course. what i prepared?
whats america is? how americans live? how americans behave?
ohh...i still remember when i was memorizing all the states in USA...that sounds radiculous.
but you know guys? i've got learn something.eventhough thats not my destiny, i got many things that i used to dont know. and now i can be more careful for deciding my plans.and also, it has motivated me to increase my english though. by this motivation, i got a quite develop-brodie said. yeah thats all experience. im just know and and concious what god considered. but this awesomes bring me to another aim..
anyway...this post hasn't finish. and the point that you see from the title havent written in this part. its gonna be continue..just wait..
fachri.
Rabu, 28 Oktober 2009
two big fault i've done
gees! it has been so long im not write in blog, wasn't?
okay i miss my all posting lil.
anyway, talking bout the tittle , you should have an imagination bout what im gonna write.
okay..in a bunch of day of a week im thinking of my fault to my teachers.
damn!first, bernie was offended and Mr. Bayu was dissapointed..ohh...god..what im supposed to do?
i've told brodie bout bernie. but hes not sure to fix this problem.
two months ago, i sent a facebook chat to bernie."what are you doin this nightn late?", i said.
"just chatting with my sister..............", she replied.the internet connection was so suck at that time.
so im not sure wheter my reply chat sent or not.then i sent it again."ohh..your sister in aussie?" but she didnt reply anymore.oh..god!
some days ago i ask brodie about this. and this shit is actually a misinterpreted ass hole!
i never meant "can we have a time together later"...
okay..i dont moterfu*king care about that hell misinterpret..just let it flow.
but i still have a problem at school. mr bayu was angry and dissapointed with us. okay, we're gonna ask for apologize to him. but when? it would be a big deal!
these badass chicks just want do nothing even thats their supposed to do that....
ahh..shit!!i hate those kind of faggot boys and girls..
okay i miss my all posting lil.
anyway, talking bout the tittle , you should have an imagination bout what im gonna write.
okay..in a bunch of day of a week im thinking of my fault to my teachers.
damn!first, bernie was offended and Mr. Bayu was dissapointed..ohh...god..what im supposed to do?
i've told brodie bout bernie. but hes not sure to fix this problem.
two months ago, i sent a facebook chat to bernie."what are you doin this nightn late?", i said.
"just chatting with my sister..............", she replied.the internet connection was so suck at that time.
so im not sure wheter my reply chat sent or not.then i sent it again."ohh..your sister in aussie?" but she didnt reply anymore.oh..god!
some days ago i ask brodie about this. and this shit is actually a misinterpreted ass hole!
i never meant "can we have a time together later"...
okay..i dont moterfu*king care about that hell misinterpret..just let it flow.
but i still have a problem at school. mr bayu was angry and dissapointed with us. okay, we're gonna ask for apologize to him. but when? it would be a big deal!
these badass chicks just want do nothing even thats their supposed to do that....
ahh..shit!!i hate those kind of faggot boys and girls..
Rabu, 09 September 2009
hi morning!!
just foolers who are said hi to morning..
but doesnt mean i am fool..not a dumbass really.
yeah.morning is the first moment we lead everyday.
where everythings are depend on.these are such a good time to makin a good things or fucking things still keep goin.
everyday was feeling the same but we can make it changed.this morning i guess. i wake up late because no reason will given by my shit,alarm clock.
no matter can stop it rang either i throw it away or woke up, turn it off and back to my holly sleepness..
aright..dont care bot that.and eventually who care?makin my own morning maybe not attracted someone to know.so thousands dirty words are match wit them.
yayayyaa..anyway , why god give us this morning?it coz of afterlife(heard no relation to the topic but no other reason. but it answer what mornings are standed for)
how if its just like somehow i done everyday..would that what i'll go in afterlife..?
hell no!!everyone has the same rule in life but i should break it away to make a new life and make my own morning.nothings gonna change the world if i did some deviations of somewhat people did in the morning.wake up in 3am wasnt a good idea for someone but i did.
this morning gonna be a change coz i dint do it. just wake up, pray, take a bath, eat, pray,and go to school and meet all the motherfucker.
still good so far. but it cause a lil change that i must come it back.
yaaahh...this writting are actually shit...
but i just tryin to write to make my shit smells better..
doesnt it?
but doesnt mean i am fool..not a dumbass really.
yeah.morning is the first moment we lead everyday.
where everythings are depend on.these are such a good time to makin a good things or fucking things still keep goin.
everyday was feeling the same but we can make it changed.this morning i guess. i wake up late because no reason will given by my shit,alarm clock.
no matter can stop it rang either i throw it away or woke up, turn it off and back to my holly sleepness..
aright..dont care bot that.and eventually who care?makin my own morning maybe not attracted someone to know.so thousands dirty words are match wit them.
yayayyaa..anyway , why god give us this morning?it coz of afterlife(heard no relation to the topic but no other reason. but it answer what mornings are standed for)
how if its just like somehow i done everyday..would that what i'll go in afterlife..?
hell no!!everyone has the same rule in life but i should break it away to make a new life and make my own morning.nothings gonna change the world if i did some deviations of somewhat people did in the morning.wake up in 3am wasnt a good idea for someone but i did.
this morning gonna be a change coz i dint do it. just wake up, pray, take a bath, eat, pray,and go to school and meet all the motherfucker.
still good so far. but it cause a lil change that i must come it back.
yaaahh...this writting are actually shit...
but i just tryin to write to make my shit smells better..
doesnt it?
Langganan:
Postingan (Atom)
