what you think best for this year?

dunno..may be just filling with piece of shit in here.
well..nothing to share but its kinda weird if im not writting a bullshit okay?
im not in a middle of somethins that isnt really my business...
who knows PPH? that black and white sucks yearly party, isnt take me apart in its excitement.
so, why it have to be need my consideration vote for its exsistance in our senior years..and it even make a new problem inside.
anyway, this is very shittin year during the history of indonesian educational system since last 10 years i guess. why? we have a different kind of national examination like its supposed to be sucked by other students in this country. the confusing style of makin people to be more carefull of the pecentage of their passed, is a biggest fear for this year.

my godness! i agree wit the goverment to make this national exam at this year to be more strict.but this is not what i mean wit "agree"...randomize room division with the randomize location of national examination and a random exam number can be a good idea.but it sounds jerk if the goverment will random the school. come on jerk! whats so wrong with the last one?
actually i got no idea to fix this educational problem but this is a silly way you know?
the most crazy thing is how could it be there are 10 kind of test booklet in every room. so, if in every room contain of 20 bastards, there are just 2 people get the same question which
decide their fate.ohh for god sake this is the most crazy part of the changing educational system during my life.
i knew what everyone thinking of something when i said the word "UN" or national examination on their ears."oh damns..why didnt i passed from this fucking school last year?this system made me crazy even gone worse i think".but what we can do?just pray? pray isnt a real good answer even god also didnt give it a damn without effort. i was being shifted to the other hand. i agree to MA to demolish the national examination. this crazy things even gone crazier.
i think mant students outa there are get the same thing wit SAT or whatever thay called that, those such sucks give a disadvantage and advantages. but how we deal with the disadvantages?
i dunno anything about SAT.and i even dont care.but i care about my fate. this year gonna be the most stressing part during the last 3 years. and we even cant chance the ministry's decision to work on the new system of national examination.
well...now how to deal with the new sucks? yeah..no way without struggling and pray?hell yes.my aim is so fuckin well dreamt in my mind ever. i can pass the UN, Pass the university admission test, and get the right decision. thats all i hope for next. not much. but its kinda sprawl! its not as simply like we figured the how way to realize it. whats going on next if we want to get? STUDY HARDER the biggest and the most well worked bullshit i've ever heard in planet.
its a little time to prepare for them. but its not too late.now lets back to the poin. the PPH, or whatever you called that, is the stupid fuckin dummy purpose for the third year. well..i got a pretty good time then.but thats not fair with its sacrify.i have to sit and lookin on the assholes singing, dancing, and freakin on the front stage.besides, i do nothing and forced to not going home and going anywhere. holly allah! was it fair to pay or guarantee my future.i believe you know the best for us and i hanging it on you. honestly i said different outside. but its not make a bullshit.THEY seems like want to forced us to follow their goal. but its not a real fixed deal. is anyone not agree, it cant deprive the stupid fucking dumbshit wit his possesion.i agree wit you who called it as our last exciting even during this white grey fun..but i want you all to consider..did you thinking of people who just can see a jealousy from a kinda even that supposed to be happy?act nothing in PPH is aone of the biggest rubbish by wasting time to prepare for it or just following others force to prepare them.wasting time, wasting mind, wasting effort for wasting chances.thats all not a pray...god please dont hear that if you think it bad. but its kinda fact of these confusing last even among the big chances.
WHAT YOU GUYS THINK?




fachri

whats going write today?

america is part of sins

how i could measure the maturity?yeah..maybe by showing a big decision about what we belive or we want is enough for me.im 16 now and will being older.was that an enough age to lead my own life?maybe.

anyway. does anyone still believe about that national selection on last december?
yeah.a part where stupid fucking bullshit lied.well im not goin to share what i felt at that time. but this is just a revision about what the hell is goin on in the past time. i used to be proud of myself cause im an achieve-full kid in my junior high school.got a high rank at class even school make me proud and motivate to be better...*ahh...vomit*
right.now in senior high school. a fabulous high school in town.17 high school. yea you can mock that. coz some ass holes dont know us. but thats okay.not my point.
many bunch of bookworm and genius people right here. so definitely, im nothing in here. i felt so much jealousy in my fist year when i was a freshman.why people can be this well. and im nothing here. ahh...embrassing..

until a lil chance come to me.whats that?exchange student program.where? i dunno. can be america, australia, or europe.i didnt have any brave nor motivation at the first test. ow..gees..how can a little idiot such like me got that chance?
well anyway i didnt got any 1-10 rank at class. and thats a terrible indication.i think that program is just for a brainy idiots and bookworms.but whats the result? i passed the first test.
alright. its still 5 test left to go. this is just a little won. even though my friends also passed. so this isnt a big champion.

next test. this is an interview season. in indonesian and in english.i think i done it well. and i got no problem to think in this step. the result is. i passed. yea. some of my friends are fail to continue to the next step. may be the word "step" is suits better than a test or selection. coz i feels like steping to the next level than passing to the next selection. but both are awesome! holly hell!whatever i said it, i felt like starting to find my confidence here.from nothing, to something.
a great thankful given..

next test.this is a group interaction aimed. we have to "sell" ourself, to act like a shit, among other are also selling bullshit here.while everyone try to be more friendly than they commonly are.yep.thats normal. so did i. but im naturally not makin a shithole bullshit like others.so, thats all exactly me.and wonderfully, i passed. step forward proudly between others. but i learn somethings. if we got something, dont let the others know it. so i dont have to feel so proud. coz everything are not always like what i wish.

next test isnt a real test. thats just a formal archieve selection by the central foundation. i just can wait whether it stand my name out or not.and once more an extra combo. i passed and now i will go to jakarta for the final step.

the day while i was waiting for is coming. now i have to fakely "selling" myself.but im to ordinary. i was being too honest. and it was my first experience while i must lying for being passed. i just did what i supposed to do.yeahh..many things that i cant publish here coz of privacy.
after it all done, i waited for the announcement...whether america will be my next year destination. but the result is........................hell no!
well...imma believer.im sure god has plan. but im alil more sure that others made bullshit. and thats all are just because of luckiness.i believe that you woiuld find a bite of people who did the same things like i did.

well you know what i did before this reallity gotten?
i prepared myself for next year?next year where? in US of course. what i prepared?
whats america is? how americans live? how americans behave?
ohh...i still remember when i was memorizing all the states in USA...that sounds radiculous.
but you know guys? i've got learn something.eventhough thats not my destiny, i got many things that i used to dont know. and now i can be more careful for deciding my plans.and also, it has motivated me to increase my english though. by this motivation, i got a quite develop-brodie said. yeah thats all experience. im just know and and concious what god considered. but this awesomes bring me to another aim..

anyway...this post hasn't finish. and the point that you see from the title havent written in this part. its gonna be continue..just wait..


fachri.